Memories are woderful to make but painful to remember. :')

Lamanya tak update blog. Yela, i'm busy with my work, studies, presentation homework, and many moree :) Student life. -_- Haha

Well, tajuk harini based on my own experience. Susah untuk kita lupakan benda yang kita nak lupa. Sangat susah. Everytime kita try makin kita ingat sweet memories tu. But after ingat apa yang dia dah buat kat kita, rasa macam tak nak ingat pasal dia lagi dah. But for me, masa i nak lupakan somebody, i asyik jumpa dia. And when i jumpa dia, i takut nak buat apa2. Hmm, kenapa eh? Sebab memories yang menyakitkan ke or i memang tak berani. I bukannya suka dia pun. But after apa yang dah jadi between us, susah untuk i lupa benda tu.

Lagi beberapa hari, i nak jumpa dia. Sebab ada function. And dia ada sekali. :( Haha, think i've prepared myself untuk jumpa dia. InsyaAllah, i akan try senyum kat da bila kitaorang contact eyes. Selama ni, i tak pernah buat macam tu. And i sangat menyesal. So, I akan try. But, as we know. Cuba itu mungkin tidak berhasil. I belum cukup kuat nak jumpa dia. But apa i boleh buat. memang kitaorang akan jumpa jugak. After apa yang dah jadi dia boleh senyum kat i like nothing happens. Maybe dia lupa or dia buat2 lupa. I don't know.

So for the function, semua dah ready. Baju, bag, kasut, camera and ada lagi. Haha. So, the preparation untuk function tu dari segi fizikal dah siap. Cuma mental i ni. Maksud i, i takut i tak kuat untuk jumpa you. Susah laaaaa D: haha. Tapi as i said, i akan cuba senyum.

Ni apa yang i nak cakap kat you.

I'm so sorry if selama ni i tak pernah balas you punya senyum, or senyum kat you. Memang susah. Tapi i tak patut tunjuk tu kan. I patut senyum je, I know. And i'm so sorry if selam ni, i looked away masa you nak tangkap gambar i. I tak boleh nak pandang you. Apatah lagi contact eyes dengan you.

Susah untuk i, tapi pada you, you maybe dah lupa semua benda. I tak salahkan you if you buat macam biasa. Sebab WHAT PAST IS PAST. Right?

As what you see, memang i sangat sombong dengan you. I tak senyum, i tak cakap and even tak pandang you. Kalau i pandang you mesti i cepat2 lari mata. I boleh senyum kat oarang lain but bila ada you, automatically, senyum i hilang. Bila i nampak you, i teringat everything. :') Tu buat i senyum while my tears running down. Tu jelah apa yang i nak cakap. Thank you for everything. You ajar i apa itu rasa yang susah nak bagitahu. Thank you very much.

You ajar i yang,

MEMORIES ARE WONDERFUL TO MAKE BUT PANFUL TO REMEMBER.

Okay, tu je lah for today. I nak buat account punya counting. Then off to school. Ciaoo~ :D

Buat Aku Tersenyum :)

Lagu Buat Aku Tersenyum memang best! Well, since i've know Sheila On 7, Buat Aku Tersenyum is my favourite. tapi most of lagu dia memang banyak yang best and meaningful for me. As my title is SENYUM, i am smiling while typing what i'm going to type lah kann :) haha~ So, dah agak lama i tak update blog cause sekolah dah start kan, i'm busy and tired. Everyday ada homework and things to do. It's my life bak kata Bon Jovi, hoho!


         I'm gonna share something about what makes me smile :)
Hikhokhikhok, where should i start? Okayyy, firstly when suddenly teringat benda yang lawak2 yang dah terjadi kat myself and my friend. Well, as we know, my titloe for this blog is FORGIVE AND FORGET, but i don't know why i can't be like that =_=' haha. Pelik kann? I can forgive someone but in the same time i can't forget it. My memory memang bagus kalau nak ingat balik apa yang dah jadi between me and someone. Tapikalau masa nak periksa, ingat sebesar bebola ikan je. -..- haha! I harap i boleh ingat apa yang i study macam ana i ingat apa yang dah jadi dulu.


          Tu je ke eh? i pun tak tahhu apa lagi yang boleh buat i senyum. haha~ thinking of someone who i loved and hated. Urmm, ye lahh. Everybody has their own enemy and best friends kan? Pada i, smiling can reduce my stress and can make me forget of my tears yang nak jatuh. Pelik, but to me that's so working. Well kadang2 tears are unstopable kan? Try senyum and your tears akan turun cause you're happy or maybe dia akan stop or kering or whatever. Hoho! Tears memang uninvited guest kat mata i, but dia asyik datang tanpa diduga. Cehh, haha. Pape je lah kan. :B

 
          Well, i think that's for now. I ada powerpoint yang kena siapkan :) So, next time wait for my storiess. Ciaooo~ :D

Holiday? Not in this year. -.-'

Now is the school holiday and my father didn't even talk of going somewhere. Yesterday I asked my mom wether we will be on a vacation this month? Kena la pegi sekarang kan? Cause nanti i have to buy my things for going back to school.

My mom kata tanya my father but then i dapat rasa yang this month memang i takkan bercuti. :(

Takpelah, nak buat macam mana. I have to think about my parents. Dorang susah2 cari duit then i nak habiskan je. Haha~

Maybe next year or another year or another year or whatever. Haha. Okay, i don't mind if tak nak pegi mana2. But bila hari minggu kena la pegi somewhere special :)

Banyak la jugak tempat yang i dah pegi, but then still tak puas. Haaaaaaa, but then I'm okay. Asalkan tak duduk terperuk dalam rumah je dah la ;D

Lagi 2 weeks nak buka sekolah, and i didn't buy anything. I tak kisah pun, tak sekolah pn takpa, tapi my mom keeps reminding me sekolah nak buka dah -.-" Fine, i tahu lah sekolah dah nak start balik tapi tak payah la sampai nak ingatkan i sampai macam tu sekali kan?

But, nevermind. I suka ada reminder dengan i, so that i will not forget a thing. Thank you Mama :D Well that's for today. Ciaooo~ :DD

I'm starting to love art! :D

Dulu masa kecik2, my mom selalu kata yang my dad suka tengok orang melukis and suka tengok lukisan. I think everybody suka tengok lukisan, right? cuma, their taste maybe tak sama dengan kita.

Now, i think my father's habit when saw someone painting or drawing something, dah terturun kepada i. Hoho! Now, i suka gila tengok orang melukis dengan penuh stylenya. Haha~ I pun tak tahulah kenapa i baru minat sekarang kan, cause dulu i paling menyampah bila my father saw someone is sketching something then dia tengok, and my father tanya2. I macam, 'do you have to bother?' Haha! Jahat gila i, and m=now i pulak yang suka buat camtu :P

These are some art that i do adore :)

Cantik gila!

Well actually banyak lagi art yang i adore, tapi takkan la nak bubuh semua kan?

To me, anybody who can draw based on what they feel, THEY ARE SO TALENTED!

Last year when i went to Melaka and Johor for a family holiday, we dropped by at A Famosa, and adalah pelukis antarabangsa (well i'm not sure kalau dia pelukis antarabangsa or not, tapi gaya dia like that) kat sana. Dia tengah melukis lah kan. And the best part is some of his drawing, dia guna pen je nak colour. Eventhough the ink colour of the pen is only black, tapi nampak macam WOW!. I'm amazed bila i nampak his drawing. Tapi bila dia guna colour water pun cantik jugak. I cuma ada 4 words je nak cakap kat dia, 'YOU ARE SO TALENTED!'

Then my father tengok je dia lukis, i pun tumpanglah tengok. Because masa tu I don't feel like walking, so i tengoklah dia melukis. Hoho! Ayah i bila nampak pelukis, dia akan cakap with that pelukis. Haha~ Ayah i memang friendly :)

Ayah i beli lah dua lukisan yang dah siap lah kan. :P

And I think my father memang suka tengok orang melukis sebab tu yang inspired dia nak draw. I think so. Sebab my father pun teramatlah pandai melukis. Seriously. Bila i ada homework for seni, kadang2 i suruh ayah i tolong bagi idea, then tetiba dia terus lukis the whole thing :) Well, thank you :D

So that's for now, ciaoooo :DD

My goodnight means a lot. :D

Selalunya bila i nak tidur, i akan cakap goodnight and i think almost everybody will say that if they want to go to sleep. I akan cakap goodnight kat semua orang yang i sayang. Well, in a simple way, my goodnight means I LOVE YOU. :D Because of i don't have any guts to say that 3 words, i just cakap goodight. That's my package. Haha~

           I teringat masa i texting dengan you until 12 am, dua kali i cakap goodnight. But masa tu you mana tau apa maksud goodnight yang i sampaikan pada you, kan? Eventhough you pun cakap goodnight dua kali kat i, i still ingat goodnight you macam tu je lah. Maksud i, goodnight yang tak beri any special meaning. Bila you text i dengan night i rasa happy. I pun tak tau kenapa, but then i rasa i shouldn't think about this anymore. Tapi nak buat macam mana dah i teringat kan. Hoho!

          
            Haritu, dah lama dah la kan. I ada la buat status kat facebook "Memories are wonderful to make but painful to remember". Now that quote refers me. Masa tu i sengaja je buat status tu sebab i rasa ayat dia best and i adalah rasa sikt macam tu. But then, bila ingat you i dah rasa macam mana rasanya orang yang kena sebijik macam dalam quote tu. Haaaaa, that's really true kan? Kenangan memang la indah masa kita tengah melaluinya, tapi bila ingat balik kita rasa sedih and down je and memang menyakitkan bila nak ingat balik benda yang indah kan? Tu dia free translation ;D Hehoheho!


            I tak tahulah wether i can forget all of the things that we're been doing together. I rasa you mesti dah lupa kan? Ye la, cause i rasa i sorang je yang sakit hati in this picture. You macam relax je and i think you're totally lupa pasal benda ni kan? Takpelah kalau you dah lupa, i won't remind you about all that happen between us. I akan try lupa jugak, but slowly lah ;) I memang dah tahu if i take the risk to chatting with you, that's mean i have to bear with the consequneces lah kan? Memang i have to bear it even i don't want to, but i take the risk so, i am in a process to be strong.


            You know what, it's really frustrating bila i tertengok gambar yang you tagged i masa kita tengah kenal. You posted kat wall i, you commented on my photo album, chatting dengan i, and we're even texting together. I tak boleh lupa! Haaaaaaa, i rasa memory i takdelah kuat sangat. I harap sangat i boleh ingat all the topics dalam sejarah macam mana i ingat kat you. Tu la yang i pelik, bila study i ingat sikit2 je. But when it comes to you, i remembered all the things. Pelik betul~! Well, i think that's for now. Ciaooo~ :D

I can't hate you! -.-'

Okayy, seriously, asal i tak boleh lupa you? After semua ni jadi, i nak je benci you. But i can't! I teramatlah pening dengan you, cause asal i tak boleh benci you? I harap sangat i boleh lupa you forever! But i can't, because i akan jumpa you later. Yela you kan i punya anak sedara :( I mengaku i cuba untuk benci you, tapi i dah tak boleh, so what can i do? Haaaaaaaa, frustrating betul! Hoho~

            So, i akan lupakan about my intention to hate you and to forget you. I takkan boleh lupakan you, cause i akan jumpa you anytime kalau ada families meeting kan. I bukan benci you, i tak suka cara you je. Cehh, drama pulakk. Hoho! Kesimpulannya, i takkan boleh benci you sebab i tak boleh. Okayy then, i akan cuba lupakan you tapi i takkan boleh benci you. Haaaa, finelahh, i dah putus asa dah :)


            I rasa banyak sangat benda yang i rasa i boleh lupa tapi tak boleh pun sebenarnya. So, that's for now, Ciaoooo ;DD

Suka and minat benda yang sama? I don't care :P hoho!

So, talking about minat, kita akan ingat kita suka benda tu la kan. I ask people wether SUKA and MINAT sama makna ke? They told me that's almost the same. When you like something mestilah you minat kan. -.-
I know when i asked something stupid they'll answer stupidly ;P haha~ Papejelah.. Tapi kita mesti tanya bila tak tahu kan? Tapi, janganlah tanya benda yang definitely shows the answer in front of your eyes. Takpelahhh. Tapi kalau tak tahu betul-betul, barulah tanya orang lain. Kalau orang tak nak jawab, senang kita google je lahh ;)
  

            Talking about interest and something that i like, i do love k-pop. K-pop means Korean pop, tapi music lain i still dengarlah, for sure. I love all musics when it really suits me. What i mean is, bila lagu tu music tu best, meaningful and really go with my taste tu lah my favourite music :) . I'm not the type yang suka one song je sampai bila-bila. I try to like the song forever but i can't sebab banyak sangat lagu best. hoho!


           Lastly, I suka teramat sangat kat lagu ni, although lagu ni dah lama, but then i minat sangat. Lagu tu bertajuk >>>> It's not over by secondhand serenade :D love that song. Okay, that's for now. Ciaoo~ :D